Tuesday, May 27, 2008

To my grandfather

เมื่อวานเป็นวันเสียชีวิตของตา ซึ่งฉันไปร่วมงานศพไม่ได้ ได้แต่นึกว่าฉันกลายเป็นคนที่มีปู่ย่า ตายาย เหลืออยู่แต่ในความทรงจำอย่างแท้จริง หากสามารถทำอะไรบางอย่างได้ดีกว่าความระลึกทำหรับคนที่พึงทำได้ รู้เถอะว่ามีคุณค่ามากกว่าความระลึกถึงต่อผู้รับหลายเท่านัก ฉันไม่เคยให้อะไรใครได้เลยนอกจากความระลึกถึง บทความนี้ฉันเขียนตอนเช้าขณะที่นึกถึงปู่ โดยไม่รู้ว่าตาเสียชีวิตแล้ว และตัดสินใจบัณทึกไว้ด้วยเหตุผล 2 ข้อ คือการเสียชีวิตของตา และการอยากอ่านและกระตื้อรือร้นจากนุ้ย ท้ายที่สุดนี้ฉันก็ทำได้แค่เพียงระลึกถึงตาหรือพ่อแก แทนการไปร่วมงานศพครั้งสุดท้าย

My grandfather is a great man of who I by heart everything. He is intelligent and strong man but on the other hand he is quite sensitive. He can earn from hand to mouth, but he hardly has any suffering about his income. In the agricultural sector of Thailand for long time ago, the farmers never did in haste because they can take time the satisfied job. My grandfather gave a doctrine to me in this way, although he heard of it someday the agriculture society will be changed. At that time, I did not want to brake my grandfather’s heart because I did not believe his words. He is susceptible so he took to heart when I was stubborn.

I had a lot of experience with grandfather on account of this I am the first grandchild, he took me everywhere that he had gone. He made a history in my mind which I will unforgettable forever. “Here we are”, you live with me at the place of my hart never far a way from me. Sometimes when I had fallen down and need your suggestion, I know you are still there to sent your supporting words to me and said “here you are”. Therefore, I am ready to say “Here we go” and I will take to my heel from any obstacles anymore.

If you don’t have the initiative to do something, I don’t want to know what happens to you. In the term of my life, I don’t have idea to wait to hit the jackpot without doing anything. The life of my grandfather is part of me that he looks like out of job as you were criticized by the Western standard, but I insist that he was on the job by our tradition. Just now I know what is what and have dared to do any thing because of grandfather. I do justice to my carrier as he thought. Just in case I can not teach to anybody as he done, I hope when you read this work it is not a question of life, it is the way of living or the way of thinking. I and my grandfather are differently in a kind of human being, just now I still living and my life must be go on. You are just the same as me because we are going to goal too. It is out of the question to answer about the suitable raising life for me. I think that the life keeps to itself.

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